God is Good and I am blessed

God is good and I am blessed.

I repeat-God is good and I am blessed!

Can I be honest? Over the last couple of months, I have been experiencing warfare that I was not prepared for in this season.

Furthermore, as I started to write to you, I had planned on going into the details of my experiences since I became a fiancé. No names, but situations that I have had to experience during this time that have sought to mar my engagement season. But I find that speaking of my situation too much and going into those details cause me to magnify the wrong spirit and the wrong work. The day before I drafted this post, and at my lowest point, I was encouraged by the Holy Spirit.

I have been blessed all my life.

It felt uncomfortable (almost haughty) to come into agreement with this truth. Yet, it is true and it is biblical. I am blessed and I have been since the day my parents first held me. There has not been a day that God has not seen me to the end fed, roof over my head, and in one piece (regardless of how I felt). I have been provided for daily and without pause. Despite the life I wanted and the experiences I never got to have, I am blessed with so many wonderful experiences that are unique to my life.

When I realize that my Heavenly Father is always providing for me, protecting me, and ordering my steps I see my circumstances differently. Safely. Rather than looking ahead at my disappointments and discontentments, I choose to refocus my eyes towards my God and His work in my life.

Often times, my emotions can seek to thwart this mindset. However, as I told my friend one day when I was feeling low, I have a lot of emotions. Yet, for the first time, that is all they are to me. My emotions are just emotions. They aren’t decision makers or instructions, they are just feelings that I need to feel, but that is where their power ends. I know that God sees everything that is happening and He is holding me in it all. And just like He always does, God has led me to peace, closure, and rest in Him.

Furthermore, I have been blessed with the right people at the right time who have been able to speak life into my situation. Yet another way God’s spirit has been moving in my life. Once again, I am blessed! Especially my Bubby Bear (Yes, I’m gross about him and I will not be shamed). There are not enough words to express how special my fiancé has become to me since our engagement. The way he has navigated me and kept our relationship has been a solid rock amidst many sandy situations. Never have I been surer about this man because of how God has used Him to love me and see me like no one else has. Once again, God is good and I am blessed!

I refuse to focus on any part of my situation in which God’s Hand is not also evident. He is so good and so grand that I am embarrassed by how long it took me to see past the immediate turmoil and take in the bountiful evidence of God’s love in my life. This season of my life has grown me so beautifully and I am so grateful for everything I have had to process and deconstruct. God saw me and made it His mission to pursue me into a greater freedom. No longer am I bound by fear and anxiety (though it tries to reclaim its place in my life) and the lies that once governed me have been eradicated by God’s truth. And the strongholds that I used to believe kept me safe were exposed as faulty lies and deceptions when measured against the Word of God.

So again, I can say, God is good and I am blessed.

I am loved.

I am cherished.

I am protected.

I am provided for daily.

I am safe.

I am blessed at all times, and I will not stop saying it (or writing it).

God is my Father, not in concept, but in relationship. He shows up for me so abundantly that, when I just take my eyes off the enemy, it leaves me speechless. So great is His love for me! Now I understand how simple it is to obey the scripture in Philippians 4:4

“Rejoice in the Lord always, and again I say rejoice!”

How can I not rejoice, when all I can see when I look at my circumstances, is God’s hand directly in the middle of it?! I have no choice!

We have no choice!

Dear reader, please know that you are blessed. If you are struggling to accept this, there is a lie that you have come into agreement with that is making it hard for you to accept God’s truth. It can be hard to believe you are blessed when your life can feel so contrary to God’s truth about you. I say that you are blessed, but you are mourning. I tell you God loves you, but you can’t see past the heavy emotions swirling in your mind.

I understand, and I see you. I truly do.

It is because I see you that I wish for you to experience the freedom that comes with coming into agreement with God’s Word. The truth is that, as a beloved Child of God, you are blessed in every situation. God is directly involved in your life. And in every season He wants to be seen and experienced as a loving Father regardless of life’s circumstances.

Let’s work to live in that freedom and fight to stay free. I pray from this point onwards we only see our life through the peace of God’s goodness.