I love my life! It’s all mine!

My life is uniquely mine.

My Past

Although I have many regrets, I am not regretful. My past was carefully written for me and it has divinely guided me into my present. Every conversation that destroyed my self-esteem was an important part of my present mindset and the changes that I have made.

In my fears, anxieties, and hurts I was able to learn how to escape to the arts. It was here I found my joy through literature, crafts, and traditional art. My coping skills may not have been perfect, but God was all the while refining these skills. These passions have never left me, and I thank God for every challenge that was crafting my identity.

There is great beauty in my past starting at my birth. My parents were handpicked by God for me. In fact, the timing of my birth was orchestrated by God Himself.

I may not always believe it, but I was created to be the oldest sibling. God gave me the sisters He did with their own unique personalities because He knew they were necessary for me just as my personality was integral to their development.

Friends gained and lost.

Teachers and mentors.

The beginning of my life has been so special because it has been unique to my story.

My Present

I am nowhere near where I thought I would be at 25. To be fair, my child-like mind believed 25-year-olds and 40-year-olds had the same level of life experience, so she isn’t very reliable.

That doesn’t mean I am not in a good place nor does it mean I am not where I’m supposed to be. I have determined (this year more than ever) that I am exactly where I’m supposed to be in every way.

I have had 3 jobs since graduating and they have all been necessary for each stage of my life. Now, I am at a job that feels nearly perfect. It took a while to get here but I finally work in a place that perfectly complements my personality (and nervous system).

My current job has granted me a work life balance I could only dream of in university!

My relationships, though some far from perfect, are so special to me. Everyone, including those who dislike me were known by God and still placed into my life. None of them were meant to be in my life in my past as I can fully appreciate them in my present. Who else could have known exactly when and who to bring into my life in this exact season but my God?!

Speaking of my Father, God has grown me beyond myself so much in this current place. Admittedly, in my fear, I fail to pause and enjoy my present season. Yet, as I have stated before, so much of my life is an answered prayer. The friends in my life, the loves in my life, the hobbies I picked back up are all a result of years of crying out to the Lord.

Future

It was my assumption that I naturally was unable to enjoy the present moment. However, that is an incorrect diagnosis.

The problem was my inner struggle between my desire to rest in the moment and the knowledge that there is more for me in this life. There has always been a constant tug inside of me, reminding me “Don’t stop. Keep going!” Although, this yearning has caused me great trouble in the past, it has also (with wisdom) ensured my consistent growth.

My prayer is that I live a life fully in the purpose God created me for. I want a life overflowing in fruitfulness.

I’m not sure what the future holds but I do know if I continue to walk in obedience, keep my eyes on God, and remain faithful, God has promised to make my crooked paths straight. Everything will work out exactly as God intended, and I have full faith that it will lead to a life abundant in memories, stories, and adventures.

I love my unique life, even if it isn’t the life I would have chosen for myself. It’s my book and my story handwritten by God. My prayer is that, through my obedience, God will make my life as interesting as possible.

Until next time.

With love,

The Road Writer

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